Two more weeks to go!?!?

Taaa-daaa!!!! Baby's room is put together.....somewhat.... Well it's been in this state for a couple of weeks now. Sure there are things I'd like to add to the room, like a nice carpet, a glider and ottoman, extra shelf for baby stuff, and my robot vinyl graphics I have. But, things are going to be changing this summer. I'm going to make due with what I have now, and with the financial situation I'm in there isn't much choice. It would be nice to have bambino's room put together in a way I've imagined it to be, but alas that's not going to be the case. Sure, I wish things were different, I hope that things will get better, but that's been 2+ long years of hoping, and not much has changed, if anything it's gotten a bit worse. I don't think I would've imagined me having to struggle so much through my pregnancy, with health issues, job issues, all the other issues that fall on my shoulders and mind. But, as my lot in life, nothing ever comes with ease. (Not that I expect it to, but a break would be nice)

I've decided to forgo putting up my cool giant robot vinyl graphics on the wall for now. I don't think we're going to be living in this apartment much longer. Although, I do love the apartment, neighborhood, people, my ice/water dispenser, and washer & dryer, when it comes down to it I simply can't afford to live here. I feel like I've been moving forward so long, to only now have to work my may backwards. Reality is, I'm going to pop a baby soon, and will have one latched to my boob for at least two months. That's two months of no income, two months of bills, two months of diapers....not sure how I'm going to survive. But I suppose I've always made due with less and this is no different than any other time. It weighs heavily on me that this situation I'm in is such a burden on so many people in my life. I am truly thankful to my friends and family who have helped me out and been so supportive. With out their love and kindness, I'm not sure if I would have made it this far.

But enough of my boo-hoo stuff....news about the little guy! Induction date is set. Whoaaa, it's in two weeks. TWO WEEKS!!!! Where has the time gone? If he doesn't pop out on his own, I'll be strolling into the hospital on May 25th 2010 to start my induction, which means he probably won't arrive until the next day. It's exciting and scary all at the same time. I'm ready but not ready all in the same breathe. There is still a bunch of things I need to do, and with all of my doctors appointments it's been hard to get them done on my own. I'll probably start doing all those wacky things women do to try to get the moving out. I'm hoping that by doing that stuff, it can speedy up my birth process and help the little guy out with less complications. On a positive note, I'll be able to eat hot dogs for Memorial day weekend!!! Yummmm....hot dogs :)

9 months!!!!

Happy Cinco de Mayo! 5/5/10 also marks me being pregnant for nine months! I can't believe that I'm already here, time is whizzing by so fast. The little man has to bake for at least one more week for him to be out of the preemie range. However, I haven't felt any contractions yet, and I'm no where near dilated. But, getting around has been hard lately, my center of gravity is all out of whack!

Nick and I did a mini portrait session this past weekend to mark our journey of pregnancy. It's been long and difficult, with plenty of challenges, but we know in the end it'll all be worth it. There were a couple of additional ideas for the portrait, but I got tired quick. Although I had a nice long cable release to take the photos, I still had to run back and forth to check the images. It was kind of tricky. If we're up to it in the next couple of weeks, we may do the other ideas we had, they're really silly and fun, but we'll see how these last couple of weeks go. The little guy is going to be so tired of me taking photos all the time, but I may be too tired to take them. HA! We'll see!

As I approach the end of my pregnancy, I'm becoming a familiar face at the hospital. Especially this week! I don't think bambino likes all the monitoring, but it has to be done. He's been doing excellent in the NST tests, moving and kicking around like a healthy baby. The sonograms have been a little bit more difficult. They are time consuming, and he always moves into a position that makes it difficult for the tech. It's like he knows! So far, my fluids have been measuring ok, and his kidneys are ok, but I have to ask the doc to make sure. I still have to find a pediatrician for him, and sort out the whole not having health insurance thing and how he falls into it. But the count down definitely begins! If I do have an induction, there are only about 20 days left. EEEEEEKKKKKK!!!!